Lonely

January 15, 2008

5:31 pm

Last night John told me that he'd be going to Canada tomorrow and then to China on Sunday. So, for the remainder of this week, he will only be here on Friday and Saturday. He will also be gone all week next week. I am sure it will be very tough not to have him around, particularly considering that I am home by myself all day long. Ugh -I am so not looking forward to next week at all. It will be so lonely without him...

Ever since getting pregnant, there have been so many changes in my life already! And since we are talking "travel", let me discuss changes in my life that are pertinent to my current ability to going places: the year before last, I was out of the country, on and off for about 6 months. Last year I visited 9 different countries and between China, Singapore, Copenhagen, New Zealand, St. Marteen, Saba, St. John, St. Thomas and Brazil, I covered quite a bit of land! Now this year I have no prospects of going anywhere, except to Brazil to be with my family right after the baby is born. If John and I are lucky, we will take the baby on our 1st family vacation to, perhaps, New Jersey, Florida, or New York, to visit her Uncle, Aunt and/or Grandparents! Haaaaa!

Now that I am farther along in my pregnancy, I go back and forth on whether the time that I have pre-baby (currently 3 and 1/2 months) is way too long or simply not long enough to wait for my daughter. Will I be afraid or ecstatic when all the other changes associated with her birth arrive? I have no idea and honestly, no choice in the matter (as I will have to wait as long as it takes for her to arrive), but one thing is certain, I can't wait to meet this little one. In thinking about John not being here, changes, etc., I just had this overwhelming feeling that the biggest change for me will in fact be that in a few months, I, will never, ever, ever be alone or lonely, ever again...